Today, I finally had to face up to the fact that I am no longer fit and healthy, despite having been on medication for high blood pressure over the last five years, I had had no problems. Now I am just glad that I don\’t live on my own, in Colombia or any other Country for that matter, because it would have made no difference where I was. I totally lost the plot, it is the first time in my life, that I have not had control over my life, and seriously thought that was it!
This morning I forgot to take my High Blood Pressure medication, it was not the first time, but by mid-day I thought it was too late to take the tablets, and left it until tonight, this had happened before with no problems.
This afternoon, Marcela went out, I took Pépe out for a walk, it was very hot, but I thought nothing of it, on our return, I gave Pépe a brush, but this was then thinks started to go wrong.
As I started to get up, my focus went haywire, I went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror, but everything looked fine, and yet I could not focus, despite blinking away. I went to the kitchen but I could not think where the pots etc. should be put, it was absolutely ridiculous, I always put everything away.
I went to the Office, the screen on my computer had locked, but again I could not work out how to open the screen, I couldn\’t understand what the block under my name was for, it was for the password, but at the time this meant nothing to me, and I had to shut one eye to stop seeing a myriad of everything.
I thought something seriously had gone astray, I admit I was frightened, whether it was because of my situation, I don\’t know, but the thought of taking medication never even went through my mind.
I went to bed, and sent a message to Marcela, however even this took twenty minutes, because I couldn\’t remember how to work my mobile, she came straight home, and brought my medication, again this did not click with me at all, I thought something had seriously gone wrong, but after she gave me my Blood Pressure tablets, I was fine, thank goodness Marcela realised what was the problem.
It is a horrible feeling, thinking that you have gone loopy, the relief knowing it was down to my BP medication was megga, I now know I will always be reliant on those tablets, and I can\’t afford to miss even one lot. I certainly don\’t want to go through that again.